People — moms especially — like to talk about balance. Work-life balance. Mom-life balance. Mom-work balance.
And I wonder about it a lot. Is there really such a thing as a balance? I often lean towards a no, because life is imperfect and always changing.
Some people talk about a blend, that it's about taking the pieces of life and melding them together as best we can, because there is no such thing as balance.
As a stay-at-home mom, my priority is our daughter, but I also try to have a lot of free time for reading, writing, meditation or yoga, and other pursuits I enjoy. Then there's also my plan to go back to work sometime soon to help support my family.
For some reason when I think about all three — motherhood, work, and my personal needs and wants— I get overwhelmed. And I hate it. It's like I get consumed by all three, and I end up feeling like I can't do anything to move forward.
I'm trying to figure out what direction to go in with work. I have a master's degree in elementary education, which I can use, but I'm drawn areas of teaching too, some of which I've done. Environmental education. Farm education. Family and consumer science. Health. Cooking.
I'm also drawn to writing, and having the flexibility to work from home while our daughter's little. And I'm drawn to a few other fields altogether, like counseling and social work and anthropology, which I studied in college.
It's all kind of a mishmash in my brain, which doesn't help that balance.
So what do I do when I feel overwhelmed? I try to ask for help, which I'm not always good at. I try to nurture myself and spend less time on social media, less time in the comparison trap. I talk to friends on the phone and by text. I do some research, but not so much to get consumed.
And I know that each day is a new day, and that I will get there.